Even the Gods were Conflicted

“The conflict between Apollo and Dionysus—a famous dilemma in mythology.
Representing the age-old battle between mind and heart, which seldom want the same thing.
The mythological reference, is now often being used to describe the alcoholic who stares at a glass of alcohol, his brain knowing it will harm him, but his heart craving the comfort it will provide. The message apparently was:
Don’t feel alone - even the gods were conflicted.
- Dan Brown, Inferno

I came across this passage when reading Inferno a few months ago, and immediately fell in love with it. We all feel conflicted at times. ”The age-old battle between mind and heart” can get rather frustrating, and we feel pulled in opposite directions. The kind and sweet ‘good-guy’ or the hot and intriguing ‘bad-guy’? The boring job with the decent income, or the dream job with an uncertain future?
In my case, it was sound or vision.

The pictures on a wall. Or on a shelf, a poster, a website. Wherever.
The still photos that mostly are all about the visual. What your eyes see, and your camera captures. The images in your mind. They can easily be enjoyed in silence, and often they are.
And then there’s music. Audio. Rhythms. You don’t need to see anything to enjoy it. Just turn up the volume, lean back and close your eyes. Listen. I always feel comfort in knowing that no matter what you’re going through, there’s always a song out there about just that. It can get me through anything.
How about combining the two? The possibility of musicality in the visual arts…

From the day I realized how much I loved photography, and decided I wanted to become a professional photographer, I struggled with choosing a direction. There are so many different type of photographers out there. So many different genres within the same profession. What did I want to photograph?
I studied for a year in Norway and four years in the UK, and did several projects along the way. Street photography, landscape, portraiture, photojournalism, a poor attempt at boudoir, pet photography etc. They were all fun, but it never felt right.
It took me 3 1/2 years of studying before I found out what I wanted to photograph; music

My lecturers weren’t exactly pleased with my choice of direction, they made that pretty clear, but believe it or not, I prefer to listen to my mom over them:

“You can do anything you want, as long as you want it strongly enough”

Emma Stevens headlining in her home town Guildford

I sort of stumbled upon music photography when I attended a concert back in November 2012. Jenn Bostic was opening for Christian Kane, I had tickets, and as the good student I was, I took my camera with me everywhere. The stage was filled with coloured lights, ‘Jealous of the Angels’ was being performed, and everyone in the audience was crying. I took a few photos, looked down at my camera, and fell in love. Music photography has been my passion ever since. Instead of choosing one or the other, I get to combine the two things I love the most.

Jenn Bostic just after she finished performing the beautiful and touching song ”Jealous of the Angels”

It’s safe to say, I wouldn’t be where I am and do what I do, if it wasn’t for these two girls. Jenn and Emma welcomed me to their shows with open arms and were the first ones I ever worked with. The first feedback I ever received on my music photos were from them, and it was so overwhelmingly positive that I walked around in my room for probably 15 minutes before I could get myself to sit down. Just thinking ”oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. Is this real? oh wow…. Ooooh my god. It’s real…” I never saw it coming, was kind of in a state of shock.
To this day I still feel like that whenever I look at the first emails. It’s a wonderful feeling and I never want to let it go.

I know my photos aren’t perfect. Neither am I. I have a lot to learn, a lot to improve, but hey! That’s what life is for. Right? ;)

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